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This July is extraordinarily hot, through the brown glass film, I still feel the sun It was scorching hot, and the air in the car became a heat wave. I asked several times in a row, “Is the air conditioner turned on?”
“The news broadcast said that more than 200 people in Europe have died from the heat! If I do this again, I will die from the heat!” I couldn’t help complaining. My sister-in-law and second sister-in-law were discharged from the hospital, and we took the time to rush back to visit her and the mother-in-law whom we hadn’t seen in weeks.
Passing by a rural market town, planning to buy some food and fruit, the hot and dry street sewage is flowing, and the air still exudes the stench of live birds, but the counter is already empty, and there are only a few scattered vendors left , guarding the sun-dried soy products, seeing us from a distance, and shouting enthusiastically: “Come on, let’s have some jelly, pea noodles, if it’s not delicious, it won’t cost you money!”
I He asked with a smile: “Why are the chickens and fish all gone?”
“Cough, the villagers are all rushing to the early market! What time is it now! Who can sell fish until now?”
I looked at my phone, “It’s only about 9:30.”
“It’s hot, the food is easy to spoil, and there are very few people who buy it, so I don’t dare to pay more. I don’t lose money this day, I make money. Now, the business is difficult, do you bring some bean sprouts?” She looked at me and waved her hands politely, her eyes full of disappointment.
Returning to my hometown, just after getting off the car, the fourth brother and the fourth sister-in-law were picking beans in the vegetable garden next to the door. , Threads and strands of new branches are spreading. The recent rains have made the vegetables in the garden grow quickly, and the growth of pepper seedlings and amaranth seedlings is gratifying. “Third sister, do you want chili? Come back and pick some for you?” the fourth sister-in-law asked.
For more than 20 years, every time I walk into this big family, I always feel both familiar and unfamiliar. Familiarity is because no matter how time passes, everyone has always been restrained and friendly, and strangeness is because we have been carefully and cautiously maintaining that bond.
Until the father-in-law passed away, the sister-in-law left, and the second sister-in-law fell ill, Ding Xingwang, who was so proud of her mother-in-law, ceased to exist. Her mother-in-law was always crying, and every time she went back to see her, she would always feel sad and sad : “What’s the reason for this? Children are all hearts and souls. Which one is not doing well, I don’t feel good in my heart!” Peaceful evening scene. But now that my father-in-law is gone, and my sister-in-law is gone, what my mother-in-law said the most was: “I don’t want anything, just eat this meal in front of my face, whether I can eat it next time is another matter, maybe tonight Tomorrow morning, I put my head down and fell asleep! Alas! Your grandfather (father-in-law) is going to leave… I don’t have that blessing, I don’t have that fate!” As she spoke, tears rolled down her cheeks.
My heart was aching at that time, and I was ashamed that I couldn’t take better care of her. Maybe aging is destined to be accompanied by loneliness, and we will be the same, and we will say goodbye helplessly. However, I still imagine that in a limited time, it is natural to have more happiness in the world, and a little more Chenghuan’s knees will have no regrets.
When the wind picked up, the dark clouds above my head kept coming. My third nephew, Xiaomeng, stood in front of the door with me. We talked about many topics. We were happy, helpless, regretful and hesitant. He was the only one who could open up to me in the whole big family. I know that he has always been persistent and tenaciously fighting for life. Disdainful, but has been seriously and diligently picking on the pressure and responsibility.
“Auntie, do you know how tired I am?” Speaking of his mother, his expression was heavy and complicated. I know and understand, but I’m not doing enough myself.
Anyone’s contribution, even if they don’t want to be affirmed, is not willing to be denied. The kinship linked by blood cannot be severed or given up. Apart from taking responsibility, both parents and children have no choice.
“There are no perfect parents and no perfect children in the world.” Maybe we met in this life to prove that with a family love, we can depend on each other with confidence and resist all the wind and rain in the world.
The heat is unbearable, and the terrace in July is still full of purple longevity flowers as scheduled, with five concentric petals, charming and charming. Despite the scorching sun and the occasional burnout, those little flowers, relying on their desire for life, decorate themselves with beautiful brilliance. As long as they can take responsibility and have a yearning for their hearts, they can still bloom into butterflies and bloom in the sun. Sleepless and beautiful, soaring for a long time, proudly facing the wind and the sun!
About the author: kiss the rain, formerly known as Zhang Hui, from Huainan, Anhui, senior middle school teacher. I love literature, I like to read classics with my heart, and I like to perceive life with my heart. I have had a literary dream since I was a child.
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